Mother's Day

Mother's Day. A day that is proving to be one of the most difficult for me. This is the first mother's day that has happened since the miscarriages. WoW... Crazy. The emotions I am going through are just insane, so here I sit in a room by myself trying to deal with them all. I just feel so empty... so torn up inside.

Not only am I dealing with my own personal dilemma with the miscarriages, but it has been a hard week with my mom as well. I have called her a few times so we could take her out to dinner today to celebrate, and all she can do is tell me she doesn't want to talk to me about it and hang up the phone on me about it. Ouch...

As you can see, my heart is hurting for many reasons today. I would have my twins here today if they didn't leave me. Or... I would be pregnant today, if that one didn't leave me too. Today is an especially hard day for me. Is that selfish? I want to spend time with people, but I feel as though I cannot give all of myself to the joy in celebrating mothers right now.

For all of you mother's out there... Happy Mother's Day... for those of you who are not... Happy Woman Day...