Memories

I've been thinking a lot about memories lately. I mean, com'on, when you're sick, you don't have much else to think about.

I've thought about what kind of child I was... the guilt I feel for wanting things, knowing we didn't have the money for it, but also knowing mom would get it for me if I wanted it. I guess I never really appreciated everything she did for me. But as I have been getting older, I realize it now... and it means a lot to me.

I've been thinking a lot about the time I (we) were involved in CANT Ministries. It was a good time, although a bad time. It's been a while since we have been there or seen anyone. I think the last time we saw them all was at Jeff and Jolene's wedding in 2006. There is so much hurt built up in my heart concerning some of the people there. Not sure what to do with it all. I've been thinking about it a lot... well... thinking about them a lot.

The good news is... I think I am getting over them. I think I am finally getting over the relationships/friendships I have lost through following the path we are on. I'm actually ok with it.

I'm supposed to be at training today. I've been really sick the past couple of days, so training isn't happening. I hope my manager isn't too upset with me... I'm just not doing to good with the flu right now. I missed class on Tuesday, missed training on Weds morning, thank god school was canceled last night because I wouldn't have been able to go and that is one class you don't want to miss. And today, I am not at training. The doctor gave me some good medicine though... so maybe I'll feel better soon. He told me I would feel better by tomorrow... 250% better... I'm holding him to his word.