Becomming Mean.

I think I want to be mean. Just once. I have had quite the week, well, few weeks.

Lets start off by saying I hate being sick. I had a cold for a few days, and then a few days after I felt better, I decided that throwing up would be a fun thing to do. This has been going on since mid-October. Even right now, my stomach is turning like crazy, however nothing is coming out. I have had numerous people ask me if I was pregnant. Who knows! I highly doubt it since I take a little pill to prevent such things from happening at this point. I have no other symptoms, so I would have to say no. Plus, I don't think my emotions can handle such news. After 2 miscarriages and a hubby who wants to wait until we are done with school... I couldn't handle the stress. So as of right now, lets go with a definite no on the baby issue.

Secondly, I was in class on Wednesday night and we were talking about the 6 briefs we had to write the week before. My teacher, Dr. Ruth, decided not to collect them and the whole class got really upset because for those who did the homework, it was kind of time consuming. I stated that I didn't mind doing them, because the cases we typically brief are really good cases. (It's a Criminal Law class.) Anyways, Dr. Ruth said, "You probably get all of your briefs from Brian." I stated that Brian didn't take criminal law, therefore I didn't copy his "briefs." I got a little upset at this. Does she think that is all I do? Copy from my husband? The more I think about it, the more upset I get. I think about all the times I have taken her for classes that Brian has had her for, if she thinks that I copied things from Brian. News Flash... Brian threw away all of his notes from her classes and I am a frickin' independant person who can do things on their own!!! I don't ride Brian's coat tails and am extremely offended at the comment made.

Thirdly, (yep, I'm gonna keep going)... In that CrimLaw class that I guess I don't do my own work in, I have a "buddy." This buddy of mine likes to not do the homework and ask me to make copies of mine, or email him mine. So far, for all the briefs we have been assigned, he has done NONE. I have done them all. Just call me mat and walk all over me. I'm a little tired of it... but I am too nice and never tell him No. I feel bad for people and have this horrilble trait that I just don't like to say no to people. I need to stop that... but I think if I say no, that they won't like me anymore and you know what? I don't flipping care anymore. I have spent too much of my life worrying about what other people say and think about me that I just am done with it all. If you don't like me for saying no to something or for any reason at all, deal with it. I don't care anymore. If I don't like something you do or say in my presence, I will tell you. I'm not going to let people walk all over me anymore.

Nothing else is really going on. I have a really hard midterm coming up in one of my classes but I am thinking that I should do ok. I am hoping that I ace it, but with my luck, probably not.

I guess that is all for now... happy reading.... and


HAPPY HALLOWEEN!