Pride can Kill.... Literally...

Pride can Kill...

Brian and I went out to eat dinner on Friday before I left to go to Port Huron to be with my family. As I was sitting there, a piece of food got lodged in my throat. I waited a few seconds and tried to force it out by grunting and clearing my throat... however that didn't work. (Brian said he didn't even hear me grunt at all). Well... after a few more seconds (at this point it has been like 45 seconds) I get up to go the bathroom because I didn't want to look stupid at the restaraunt. I go to the bathroom, where I end up FINALLY being able to cough and the food became dislodged. Brian told me it was dumb for me to go to a place where no one else was because if it didn't get unlodged, who knows what would have happened. My pride got in the way... :o(

I'm fine now... I feel stupid that I was choking but I also feel stupid that a restaraunts reaction was more important than getting the food dislodged.

I went to Port Huron this weekend... got to spend some time with my family. Gosh how I miss spending time with them at times. I have learned that I love them sooo much and I really enjoy spending time with my mom. I see more and more how I have become more like her and as a child, I can remember saying I never wanted to be like her... where now, I am happy that some of my traits come from her. I dunno...

I didn't get much sleep last night, as I spent most of my night praying for my mom. You see, her hearing is getting worse and the noises in her head (from her ears) are driving her crazy. It's so hard to see her battle and I wish I could take this burden from her and carry it. I wish the noises she heard were gone and they were in my head. I would take that for her... I would do anything to see her smile and happy and not upset at the fact the doctors tell her over and over there is absolutely nothing they can do. (Which is a lie) There is a test they can do that could tell us exactly what they can do, but there is a risk of stroke with this procedure. Granted, my aunt had the same thing done and it isn't that big of a risk, but since it is still a 1% chance, the doctor doesn't want to do it. Hmmm....

I love my husband so much. Sometimes I think I take for granted what God has blessed me with. We have our usual spousal disagreements, but man, I am one LUCKY woman... he is the most amazing person to walk into my life and by golly, I just love him!